I know, and there isn't really, especially with the impermanence of this place. And it's certainly not going to happen quickly.
Hey, it's all right. She might not fully understand but that doesn't mean she cares about you any less, you're not "nothing" to her.
[How to put this? It's a little harder when trying to put it in words, especially to someone certainly not native to her version of Earth.]
And even a shadow isn't "nothing." Where I'm from, there's a spirit in everything--it's called "kami", technically I'm a kami, there's kami in trees and water, there's even kami in sound and the air. The Pokemon are very similar to my culture's concept of kami. They're paid tribute to and regarded as something very much real. So...honestly, you're a kami from my perspective.
I heard about that kind of thing. Not super specific, 'cause that's not the kind of magic my family's into, but. It's a thing I kinda know of.
[And it's a nice thought. Really. That she could be her own spirit. But the facts laid out here are that she's really not; no matter what Botan or Webby or anyone else says, it's the complete and utter truth that she's only a piece of Magica that her aunt cut off and later discarded. They can try and be as introspective and reassuring as they want, but they can't change those facts.]
But uh.... a shadow is a lot different from trees or water or animals. I mean... it's part of a person. That's like saying someone's hair has a kami.
Sorry, I'm not laughing at you. There is such thing as hair spirits, believe it or not. And it's not magic, it just...is, it's nature, it's spiritual. Your aunt wouldn't have thought of it because, frankly, she sounds like a selfish dolt with her head up her bum, but even random "nonsense" gestures like that create kami.
Belief can create a lot of things, that's all I'm saying. And even if your so-called creator doesn't believe, well throw her off a cliff, you've got people that believe, and I know that sounds like a fairy thing but it's also legitimate. Still, I know, it's a lot to try and cope with, I suppose what I really want to ask is, what do you want to do now? With this life you've been given, with your friend.
... Wait, seriously? Oh man those must be some weird spirits.
[Aaaand there's the real question. The whole freedom thing. Honestly, being free kind of scares her about half as much as everything about her normal life does, because it's one huge, dark (or maybe light?) unknown.]
I never really thought about it. What I'm going to do after Magica I mean, because... I dunno. I did some pretty bad stuff 'cause she told me she'd set me free if I helped her, but even though I did it, I don't think I really believed that she'd just let me go? So I didn't make plans or anything.
[... There's some more dark stuff there about what exactly Magica was doing to this poor kid, but she's talking about it almost casually....]
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Hey, it's all right. She might not fully understand but that doesn't mean she cares about you any less, you're not "nothing" to her.
[How to put this? It's a little harder when trying to put it in words, especially to someone certainly not native to her version of Earth.]
And even a shadow isn't "nothing." Where I'm from, there's a spirit in everything--it's called "kami", technically I'm a kami, there's kami in trees and water, there's even kami in sound and the air. The Pokemon are very similar to my culture's concept of kami. They're paid tribute to and regarded as something very much real. So...honestly, you're a kami from my perspective.
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[And it's a nice thought. Really. That she could be her own spirit. But the facts laid out here are that she's really not; no matter what Botan or Webby or anyone else says, it's the complete and utter truth that she's only a piece of Magica that her aunt cut off and later discarded. They can try and be as introspective and reassuring as they want, but they can't change those facts.]
But uh.... a shadow is a lot different from trees or water or animals. I mean... it's part of a person. That's like saying someone's hair has a kami.
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[She corrects herself.]
Sorry, I'm not laughing at you. There is such thing as hair spirits, believe it or not. And it's not magic, it just...is, it's nature, it's spiritual. Your aunt wouldn't have thought of it because, frankly, she sounds like a selfish dolt with her head up her bum, but even random "nonsense" gestures like that create kami.
Belief can create a lot of things, that's all I'm saying. And even if your so-called creator doesn't believe, well throw her off a cliff, you've got people that believe, and I know that sounds like a fairy thing but it's also legitimate. Still, I know, it's a lot to try and cope with, I suppose what I really want to ask is, what do you want to do now? With this life you've been given, with your friend.
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[Aaaand there's the real question. The whole freedom thing. Honestly, being free kind of scares her about half as much as everything about her normal life does, because it's one huge, dark (or maybe light?) unknown.]
I never really thought about it. What I'm going to do after Magica I mean, because... I dunno. I did some pretty bad stuff 'cause she told me she'd set me free if I helped her, but even though I did it, I don't think I really believed that she'd just let me go? So I didn't make plans or anything.
[... There's some more dark stuff there about what exactly Magica was doing to this poor kid, but she's talking about it almost casually....]